Friday, September 5, 2014

All in a night's work!


A thousand things to do before I go to bed tonight. A thousand may be an exaggeration,may be  a hundred..if not , quite a few.

My daughter usually gets up hungry if she goes to bed without having food. But her dad, on the contrary won't even turn in bed, not because he is not hungry, but just because of the sheer laziness to get up and walk to the dining table. They say marriage is just another fancy word for adopting an over grown male child who can not be handled by his parents any more ..Well anyway, I made dinner, fed my 5 year old daughter and then fed my 37 year old son and sent them both to bed. Today it is dad's duty to make her sleep.

My home was a mess with toys, books ,play dough and what not scattered mercilessly on the floor . I started cleaning the room, but then I had to stop. Because my daughter woke up from her sleep and  I had to console and sent her to bed again . She was inconsolable because the person who was supposed to make her sleep, slept before she does and she refused to count her sheep.   Somehow peace was made in the form of three more bedtime stories and got settled in bed. Now I have to make my own dinner. People asked me why I am not getting plump in spite of staying home without a day job. Yeah, the simple secret is eating less.. by this time I won't have the energy or desire to eat more than a cup of rice!

I started preparing for my job interviews to prove myself capable of doing the job. The interviewers are not going to ask how many lunch boxes I pack everyday . It would have been easy if they ask what is the best possible method to pack lunch boxes or how do you prioritize the resources (in kitchen) or whether you go for a reactive approach or proactive approach to resolve conflicts such as  your kid not wanting to brush teeth before going to bed . Since that is seldom the case, I am relying on the '100 frequently asked job interview questions for the experienced' .

It suddenly started to rain and I ran to the balcony but the clothes started to get wet anyway so I dropped the plan of taking them from the hanging line.What the heck, let them soak in the rain for the full night, I have all day tomorrow to deal with the wet clothes. It continued to pour and I tried to concentrate on my interview materials. But I couldn't even reach the tenth question.. my mind started to wander.Well, I won't be able to clean up the entire house in one night, I won't be able to finish up my 100 interview questions before the day breaks tomorrow, I will anyway have to get up and pack lunch for my kid tomorrow.. I am alone now and  without any disturbances. I have got an entire night with me to reflect upon..I let myself loose and wandered through my thoughts.  My eyes are tired and so are my hands. Nevertheless  I am awake ,because it is still raining outside.

-R.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

The Loop

Sometimes we get into a loop and however we tried we are just unable to break free ...
I am looping in fatigue, sickness, medicines, zero appetite, lack of interest to anything, worries abt my health, sleeping, lack of sleep and Candy crush ! 
I don't seem to find out a way to break free...
People who know me are wondering about what had happened to me!
I am wondering and feels funny that even in the times of modern medicines, the Dr do not seems to have any remedy for my prolonged nasal block  and cough other than prescribing plain steam inhalation twice daily..oh and the advise- "you just think that it will get better, then u feel the difference. If you think this will never go away,then it won't " buhahhah....
My Dad asked me " what were you expecting  from him then, a 4th course of antibiotics? To me he sounded reasonable that he didn't put u again under medication" ...well after much thought I have decided to accept the facts..yeah..bad things happen to good people ;-) right???
This is it...If I go on like this, I will lose myself soon..and I still love the old me in myself...so hang in there dear...
I should feel happy that I am not in Ghasa..
I should feel happy that my dear ones were not there in MH17
I should feel happy that my daughter has at last, courageously taken the decision to make her own friends gang ,to which membership is limited only to those being nice to her and outcast anybody being mean to her...
what a simple logic. I should learn from her it seems...
It's time to outcast anything that is not being nice to me..
It's time for me to bite those little gooseberries again and savor the sweet sourness by gulping a glass of cold water...

And yeah! I slapped and killed that mosquito that was disturbing me for sometime...